Feeling better

Well, feeling better today after a bad couple of days. Got really angry about something at work, then realized later the evening while talking to Mrs E that the anger was still there, and that it was probably a part. Had a good time of prayer before bed, and actually slept through the night for the first time for a long time. No strange dreams or flashbacks. Thank you Y'shua. I'm singing tonight at a meeting at church so I hope that goes well. There's certain optomism when I feel good. When I feel good I really do feel very good, the problem is sometimes I'm not aware if there's a part out when I feel bad. At times it's obvious, I feel like I'm living from the back of my brain, watching what is going on. Someone else is talking and working my personality. At other times it's more subtle, and it's often a long time later when I'm talking about some strong emotion that I can tell there's a part out that I wasn't aware of before. That's what it was like last night. I am also amazed that the second I feel like I'm not in control I revert to a terrified child. That child, or many children, are still in there, trapped in their own little world, full of terror. When they come out they are there to protect me. They take some pain or trauma, or perception thereof, and make sure they take it and not me. They have been doing the same job for over 50 years and I often feel they are tired. Thank the Lord that one day there will be rest for all the weary.