Faithless to faithful

Well, an amazing weekend of realizing God’s care and compassion. A few weeks ago I was at a lecture, and bought one of the books the man had written. I asked him to sign it, and he put in a Bible verse, 2 Timothy 2:13, If we are faithless, He remains faithful; He cannot deny Himself. This was very prophetic of the last few weeks, where I’ve certainly felt low on faith, high on fear and uncertainty. Our household has several large bills looming, not least of which is around $6000 to repair our street. It seems that unlike England, the householders here have to pay for the road outside their house. I wonder what would happen if one lived on a 10 lane interstate highway, would you get a bill for $200 million? Anyway, I digress. I have been concerned that there are these bills looming and a distinct lack of financial resources. I have a blue collar job, and as I work in the non profit sector, the wages are lower than other places. Well, Mrs E and I were gobsmacked when a family member gave us a large cash gift, more than enough to pay for our street repair. It also just arrived in time, as the tooth my dentist had warned me about broke up over the weekend, and the crown cost me $850 today. I am so aware of God’s total care at the moment, completely at the other end of the scale from where I’ve been for some weeks. I think it started when I crashed my car a couple of months ago. A lady backed out of her driveway without looking and I slammed into the side of her car. This really shook me up, and in making many phone calls thereafter my speech was often so locked up I couldn’t speak at all and my beautiful angelic wife had to do the talking for me. My system seemed to be totally derailed and rudderless. I have missed a few weeks appointments with Dr T, my therapist and that hasn’t helped. As for my beloved soul mate, I don’t know what I would do without her, it’s our 8th anniversary today and we will celebrate this evening. She has also been through the mill in the past year or so; 2 surgeries for thyroid cancer, and one surgery last week for skin cancer that left a huge wound on her forehead. How does she keep so cheerful? I think my sytem would have a swift, panic board meeting and decide it was time to throw in the towel.
Anyway, I still feel really blessed and that God has a wonderful plan for me, well for all of us, and it will all work out in the end. Better to arrive in heaven in a party, even if it is all parts of your mind, than stand there alone?