La Weekend

Well, the weekend approacheth again. I'll be back to the bathroom project, and life goes on. We heard a close family member may have cancer yesterday and Mrs E was (understandably) very upset. Life is like that, isn't it? One phone call, doctor's visit or the like can change life forever. I remember my first marriage, I was in bed one morning and the phone rang early, it was my best friend's wife telling me my wife and her husband were romantically involved. Of course the situation was there a while, I just didn't know about it. Life changes immediately and can't be reversed. Such is the life of the likes of me very often. Some new abuse memory comes up, or some new feeling. Or perhaps an old one you thought you'd dealt with comes back when you wish it woudn't. I'm feeling quite optomistic at the moment, even though I had a few nosedives last weekend. I realised that some parts of me want to withdraw, but don't really mean it, and get really hurt when my doing that hurts Mrs E. They are all screaming "We didn't mean it!" I did try and explain this to Mrs E and we had a really good talk, and felt bonded afterwards. How true it is that anything that seems "bad" in our lives can be used for good.