Recent stuff....

I was doing so well, but....perhaps too well. After my last sessions extravaganza I was feeling a lot better, but something happened about a week ago, not sure what, that tilted my whole system and produced a meltdown, but I seem to have rebooted today. Yesterday was the worst, when I woke up I didn't know who I was, where I was, what day it was, or anything. The day was really difficult, I was very de-personalized and definitely not in charge of my mind and body. Worst thing was, I was preparing a teaching I had to do for a group I help lead and, well, what a trauma. As it turned out, someone else had prepared a teaching and they did theirs, so it was fine. I only had to stumble through a few songs after all in front of the big group of people. I did sleep better last night, and woke up with a song in my heart this morning.
Still not sure what programming is still active, I notice sometimes I do hand signals when I feel threatened and am trying to stop doing so. One thing after another. Then there's my balooning weight, comfort eating, more battles to come.

The Kingdom advances

No matter what we see or don't see, God's Kingdom advances. I have been so aware that the only was satan advances is by lies and intimidation. Once you understand that, many battles are won. I have been reading a lot in 2 Kings 18, where we see Jerusalem surrounded by heathen, threatening death and violence. The Jews turn to God, and God kills 185,000 of the Assyrian soldiers in one night. The enemy was routed. The king returned home and was assassinated. The message - don't mess with the Almighty. Don't insult Him or His chosen ones. If you do, you will die in this world or the next. Is God nice? Yes and no. To people in any situation which can be redeemed and used for good, He is merciful and compassionate. To those who reject Him, in the words of the song, "Whatcha gonna do when He comes for you?" Scream in terror of course, but it will be too late.