Here I is, here we are

Turbulent weeks have gone by, no blogging, as not a lot of life interest. Have made an appointment with a friend of a friend to be prayed over for generational stuff, there's many a verse in the Bible about that kind of thing, so it won't do any harm. Some good friends have been struggling, and have sadly fallen by the wayside, stumbling all their friends along the way. How our past shapes us is astounding. There are many theories out there about the mind etc., but I think everyone who I've ever read on the subject of the mind seems to say that we are what our past makes us. This begs the obvious question. Is God bigger than our past? I struggle with this sometimes, as of course I believe He is, but often the consequences of my past catch up with me. An obvious way to look at this is; say I murdered a school friend when I was younger. Then, I become a Christian. God forgives me (amazingly) and sets me free from that terrible sin. So there I am cleansed and forgiven by God. One day I am walking down the street and bump into my friend's mother. She is obviously distressed and attacks me. Even though God forgave me, I still have to live with the consequences of my sin. Some of us are more sinned against than sinners against others, and those experiences shape our minds and emotions. It's very hard for our minds to grasp the truth of God's freedom when we've been in denial for decades. This is perhaps the hardest part of the journey.