Great quote

Heard a great quote at the weekend, someone was being prayed for as they went into ministry, and this is what their friend prayed over them......

May all your expectations be frustrated
May all your plans be thwarted
May all your desires be withered into nothingness
That you experience the powerlessness and poverty of a child
And dance in the love of God,
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

Story of my life, or what?

The long weep

Monday evening I was sitting on the downstairs couch with Mrs E with many negative thoughts whirling round my fractured and shattered brain. Great thing was I was able to have a good cry. How cleansing and releasing tears are. How I wish I could cry more of them. In the Psalms, David weeps a lot. In those days some people used to keep their tears in a bottle. How I wish my bottle was full, instead of just a few drops here and there.

Time of blessing

Well, feeling really blessed at the moment, seem to have been able to break through lots of stuff. We have been attending a different church for 3 weeks now and we like it a lot. More important than that, the Lord seems to be confirming our move in many ways. A common theme has been Grace for a while now, along with Messianic themes and messages. I am most blessed, and most at home when I move in worship in Messianic circles. I love dancing and singing Jewish themes. What a blessing to be a part of Israel, by birth, or more importantly by faith. If only Christians would explore the Jewish roots of the faith, and realize they are Jews by faith, I believe it would be a revolution. End the pattern of men in suits teaching Greek philosophy, and begin worshipping Messiah in spirit and truth. What a life change that would be.

Shalom Jerusalem

Pray for the peace of Jerusalem. Simple. How complicated life is out there in the Middle East, and here at home in the USA. My therapist tells me that one of the signs of mental dysfunction is making everything too simple. Life is complicated and we should accept it. I've often pondered these words. Life as a multiple can be even more complicated. Which voice is the true you? As the joke goes, "Help, I think I'm going mad, the voices in my head seem to make sense!"
I don't know about anyone else, but I'm heartily sick of the Muslim agenda. Every news bulletin has film of some Muslim group somewhere either killing vast amounts of other Muslims, or demonstrating about some perceived insult to the prophet. Shame they don't demonstrate against the death squads and suicide bombers with the same fervor. I'm also more and more dismayed at the cowardice of most world leaders, who are seemingly terrified of upsetting Muslims. Surely any credible religion should be strong enough to take criticism. If it's so weak or sensitive as to be threatened by criticism it's not worth much. All this is academic, as soon we will have a new capital offence throughout the whole western world; "Threatening Islam, or upsetting a Muslim." The penalty is having crazed psychopaths try and kill you, while killing dozens of their own people in the process. If anyone can show me and Muslim country that is;
1 Democtratic
2 Treats women and children with respect
3 Gives women rights comparable to the west (no we're not perfect but light years ahead of Muslims)
4 Gives education to women and girls
5 Doesn't spend most of it's money on weapons while people are grindingly poor
6 Has a free economy
I'll convert to Islam. What I see, and any other sane person sees, is the opposite of all the above, together with the spirit of death and destruction.
In all this, sits lonely Israel. One day it will all blow up, and we'll see Messiah return. Come soon, Yeshua.

New beginnings?

Mrs E and I feel like we need a new beginning. We had our second visit today at a possible new church, and liked it a lot. Next week we start a 3 weeks class to see what the church has to offer. We felt excited about going to church today and that's a feeling that's been missing for a couple of years. We hope to be obedient to what God wants for us and to be fruitful for Him, which is difficult to do when you're unsettled, or in my case, unsettled and several voices giving different opinions. I was able to speak today to a close friend who had been overwhelmed in pain and took a wrong turning in the journey. This person was afraid I and others would reject them I would only do that if I was perfect, and as that will never happen, I'll never reject anyone who stumbles. It was good to talk to that precious friend today and be supportive and gracious to them.

The eagle leads the way?

Yesterday we visited a large dynamic church. We are still "shopping" and on the lookout for a new family and community to belong to. As we drove along the highway near the church, a large Bald Eagle flew overhead. Now I should explain that the Lord has spoken to me a lot about eagles over the years, and recently a lot. He has shown me that I can be an eagle, and all that implies. So, I was pleasantly surprised to see the bird yesterday. After we got into the service, the pastor who was speaking seemed on a hotline to God and spoke to me about all the things going on in my life at the moment. Amazing. So, it looks like this could be the place. Lead on thou Heavenly Warrior.

Here I is, here we are

Turbulent weeks have gone by, no blogging, as not a lot of life interest. Have made an appointment with a friend of a friend to be prayed over for generational stuff, there's many a verse in the Bible about that kind of thing, so it won't do any harm. Some good friends have been struggling, and have sadly fallen by the wayside, stumbling all their friends along the way. How our past shapes us is astounding. There are many theories out there about the mind etc., but I think everyone who I've ever read on the subject of the mind seems to say that we are what our past makes us. This begs the obvious question. Is God bigger than our past? I struggle with this sometimes, as of course I believe He is, but often the consequences of my past catch up with me. An obvious way to look at this is; say I murdered a school friend when I was younger. Then, I become a Christian. God forgives me (amazingly) and sets me free from that terrible sin. So there I am cleansed and forgiven by God. One day I am walking down the street and bump into my friend's mother. She is obviously distressed and attacks me. Even though God forgave me, I still have to live with the consequences of my sin. Some of us are more sinned against than sinners against others, and those experiences shape our minds and emotions. It's very hard for our minds to grasp the truth of God's freedom when we've been in denial for decades. This is perhaps the hardest part of the journey.