Moving on

Went for prayer last Tuesday with some friends of a friend (who may be reading this). They specialize in breaking generational curses, and prayed on those lines. It was a good time, with some interesting prayers and nice inspiring words at the end. I pray they come true. I have felt lighter in my spirit since, so I hope and pray I can build on this foundation, and hope and pray that I can break away from my family's spiritual swamp, which is very deep and smelly.

Goodbye good friend

Yesterday, said goodbye to my closest man friend. He flies to Ghana next Tuesday for a new life. His wife has a job working for an agency that gives grants and loans to businesses, so they'll have a great time. He will keep part of his graphics business going via the web. Isn't technology wonderful? Well, sometimes. Perhaps the best thing I've seen for a long time is Skype, a web service. If you and your friend have Skype, you can connect on the web free of charge, and use it like a phone. You can do video as well. So, at least we can video conference talk while he's in Africa.
On the home front I've had some really black days I've had to fight through to keep my sanity, when the easiest thing to do would have been to give up on life and either run away or kill myself. It's been a good thing I walk my dog early morning before I go to work. I can then pray (in between dissociative daydreaming) and try and sort myself out for the day. How strange it is when the conflicting parts try to take over and are either at war, or being overwhelmingly negative, yet when I speak on the outside it's completely different. On Tuesday evening I have a prayer appointment with some warriors who are expert at generational stuff, so I'm hoping that will help me. Cut out the root and the tree dies, right?

And so on....

And so on.....or something. Some phrase or other. Mrs E has a face with a large lump after jaw surgery on Friday and is unwell. Just a simple surgery, ha ha. Take out a broken baby tooth, drill into the jaw bone, put a titanium post in that fuses to the bone, then stitch the gums back together. I can feel her pain. Get well soon sweetie.
A different weekend. I went to a local church be a chaplain, prayer person, for a local men's purity ministry, run by a friend of mine. It was a great time, and an honor to pray with some men at the end who wanted to be free from sexual addiction or to be better husbands. God bless them. I've been struck recently by how much sex there is everywhere, from TV shows to advertising. I hardly watch TV, except for "proper" shows on the public channel. No wonder so many men fall into that kind of sin. That leads me to the famous preacher, Pastor Ted, who was caught out this week allegedly involved in homosexual shenanigans. I must say I'm not surprised. After all I've been through I have acute discernment I think and I could see through that man the first time, and the only time I have watched him on the TV. How tragic that so much responsibility is placed on pastors, or are they "superpastors" or something? I am surely convinced that nothing in Christianity is to be done alone. Even a lone missionary abroad or whatever should have a prayer team at home and be challenged and encouraged as well as prayed for. These "big" pastors are in jeopardy all the time. They can easily think of themselves as "big" or "important" in the Kingdom of God, when we're all treated the same by our Father. Those with more talents (gifts) are held to a high standard. Also, the bigger the ministry, the bigger the target for satan to shoot at. He likes nothing better to see a big name fall and cast doubt on everyone's integrity, when the vast majority of people live quiet, but humble lives. I know many men who don't sleep around, steal money or the like. It's just that they're not in leadership, so only the Almighty notices. They quietly serve their families, friends, church, and of course the Lord. That's fine by Him of course, and that's the point. We are all responsible for each other. When one suffers, all suffer. When one sins, all the body is affected as well. That's why there should be no Lone Rangers in the kingdom. We all need each other as well as Almighty God.