Long Time no See

Such a long break from writing, such a lot gone on, and much trauma. I had been feeling really bad for weeks and at one point reached a place where I thought I might hurt myself. At Mrs E's urging and I hope God's prompting I went to see a doctor from our local practice. The staff are all Christians and very nice. He was very gracious to me and gave me some medication to help my black moods, not before I had cried for a while. I was there about an hour and a quarter in total. He warned me that the pills are only trial and error, in that they may well dimish the effects of medicine I already take and this has been the case. Even worse, my many aches and ailments all started when my childhood abuse memories started leaking out and I'm convinced it's all linked. I have TMJ, spasms in my jaw muscle, which causes toothache like pain all over my face and head, an ulcer/excess acid in my stomach and loud ringing in my ears. All this is now suddenly worse I suppose due to my new pills. Until I see the doctor next week I'll have to suffer. I'm also considering going to see specialist minister for an extended time of ministry lasting several days to try and break through my present emotional log jam and blcak moods.