The weekend

Well, this weekend I was at a group of similar people blessed with several personalities and their spouses. we are eventually getting around to seeing that community is a major part of recovery. We are forming our own small community of about 12 of us. This is exciting and frightening at the same time. Some of us were more open than others. It is difficult to be vulnerable and open with stuff so scary. How can you explain that when someone asks you a question the you feel nervous about that you switch and can't speak? Or the terror of public speaking when you want to die, or the feeling that what you think is not related to what comes out of your mouth, but goes through a committee first, often taking several seconds. Why are the words that come out of my mouth not related often to what I want to say? Is it some defence mechanism, or is it fear and avoidance? God only knows, and I jope He lets me or my therapist into the loop. I also demolished part of my downstairs bathroom. This seemed traumatic as I was afraid of making a mistake. I felt fairly paralysed but managed okay. Oh well, another weekend over, now back to work. My biggest fear of course is being found out for what I really am and fired.

Starter

Well, here I am at last having the courage to come out of the closet and admit I am a working adult with Multiple Personality Disorder. This is also called Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) or some similar spelling. I hope to journal my life for a while to help myself and hopefully to help others.